HAUGHT FUDGE

Time to go

It seems that emotions and words take away the depth of what has transpired, so I won't try. The life and loss of my mom is so sacred and meaningful to me that expressing how it feels takes away its power. It becomes melancholy, cliche and gloomy. How do you explain someone like my mom and what she means to me? It's daunting and painful. I feel very overwhelmed when I think of the task ahead of me at trying to have my kids understand and know their grandmother. There is great comfort however, when I feel that my mom will know them more than I will probably understand.

Thank you all for your prayers, words, and kindness to me and my family. I truly appreciate it.

Mother, now I know where you live.

This clip is from one of my favorite movies, Wit. It's about a woman diagnosed with cancer. I highly recommend it, but be warned, it's a tear, heart, and soul jerker. But in a good way. It has brought alot of comfort, oddly enough.

Prophets and Aliens

Ok it didn't work but I did try fixing the pictures I had on here. Sometimes if I look at my boys at a certain angle or the light catches then just right they look like Elder Holland or the alien toy from Toy Story.

Eiher way, its a good combination.

Liam

Playing dress up with boy babies is more fun that I thought, but Liam seems to always spit up on his newly applied clothes.

Shane and Leland. Such handsome men.

An exuberant Shane.

The boys are really starting to be fun. They smile and babble alot and are really good at grabbing things. They love when I read to them. They sleep about 12 hours every night (Yes!) and are on a schedule. I am so happy and love them to death. My mom is hanging in there, even though she doesn't want to. She is ready to pass on. I just want her not to be in pain anymore. I can't believe all that she has endured, it's incredible. I really appreciate every one's words of love and support. Thank you for your prayers. I know it's what has extended her life this long.

It's really interesting to see death creep in. It has left me with a lot to think about. Where does life end and death start? I believe death is really only a passing to the rest of eternity but it's like death is not it's own separate thing after life, it seems it really is an aspect of this life. Anyways, ramblings, wish I had more time to think about it and write it all down. Oh well.

Gosh you're cute

This is a video of the boys. It has everything. Exposition, Climax, and a humorous conclusion. My boys are pretty awesome. They already notice each other and respond. They love looking at each other and talking to one another. If it doesn't melt your heart, you are a robot.

Honest day of work

Hi Jen. I know you are bored at work and reading this blog to keep your mind occupied. Hope this boring post helps. I love you. See you on facebook. :)

Is it weird that these are basically the only pictures I have of you? Sorry.

Grandma Haught

Leland and I took the boys to visit my family in AZ a couple of weekends ago. My mom is very sick and doesn't have much time left, her hospice nurse gives her "weeks", however long that will be. It was such a blessing to have her feeling well enough for a few days so she could enjoy my boys. I don't want my boys to ever forget her. She is the best of the best.

Cousin Ami pretending to be a monkey in the tree

Liam feel asleep in the wagon whilst holding one of Shane's toes back.

Wider perspective

The wagon ride mellowed them out (Liam and Shane)

Cosuin Tylie with cute baby Brynn

My dad took the boys for many wagon rides, which they loved.

The boys were in very good moods that morning, especially Liam (right)

Shane smiling and Liam grinning

I love this picture

Shane and Liam

Grandma and Grandad with Shane and Liam

The boys with their new cousin Brynn. She looks so much like Laura.

Sweet cousin Caidgen with one of the boys. He was very good with them.

Shane sleeping like a thug

Mom with the boys

Update on boys: Doing much better, we had to switch their formula AGAIN, but they seem to be handling it well. They are now very happy boys for the most part and are sleeping through the night! I cannot begin to tell you the joy that brings. And motherhood just keeps getting better everyday. I am truly enjoying it. People were right it does get better, and right around the 3 month mark. These past three months have felt like years but the light at the end of the tunnel is bright and shining! Now if only they could cure cancer...

Happy Baby: a myth greater than Big Foot

My boys are so cute and getting very chubby. A new fat roll appears in a new place on their body everyday, which I love. They also have tempers, holy cow. They scream bloody murder if you move them when they are not ready to be moved. They have also been having a rough go at life lately, with all the formula issues and what not. Bloody stools, colic, constipation, milk allergy (still up for debate) and so on. Life has not been easy on them. Except for the constant eating, sleeping, and cuddling part.

Babies! Boys! Baby Boys!

At almost any time you can find Shane (or Liam for that matter) making this face. It's still pretty adorable even if it produces a very shrill cry.

Liam looking content for the moment.

Liam on Leland

Sweet Liam

Don't worry, we don't love Liam more, there are more pictures of him because he was in a good mood and we tried to get a picture of him smiling. Didn't work out.

The Simpsons understand me

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Leland and I watched this episode the other day and it was so dead on I laughed until I cried, quite literally. Watch from minute 10:15 to 12:50 and you will get a glimpse of what our life sometimes feels like. Granted we don't have 8 kids but you get the idea. Especially when Flanders and Apu talk together. So relatable!